I feel mildly depressed.

pms + finals + stress + post grad life stress + midlife crisis + homesickness= not the business.

I'm not in any way undermining the true reality of depression, but this whole quarter has been kind of a personal battle and fight with own self. I feel down. sad. helpless. and often useless.

I feel incredibly down right now. I miss surrounding myself with true valuable friends.. I miss sarah. I miss ben.. and god I miss my family. writing all this makes me want to cry my life away and maybe it'll be therapeutic... but im in the library trying to teach myself concepts and god, it all just makes everything worse.

I need to get myself out of this... on my own.