Approaching the final Finals week

After doing absolutely nothing today, I came to the library to feel some sense of productivity.. and it has led me here.
It's finally my last week of finals as an undergrad student... Seriously, where did all the time go? I think one of the most depressing thoughts I have had in the past years was genuinely wondering what. the. hell. I gained from this expensive institution..and thinkin that I just might have wasted my precious 4 years of life here - walking out with nothin but older age and an older face. Do I still feel like that ? a little. I think looking at all these famous and successful people who have accomplished so much at such a young age inevitably makes me compare myself to them and I can't help but feel like this institution has done nothing but just keep me here. lock up my creativity, challenge me to procrastinate even harder, and spend time trying to please people that didn't matter.

But I do feel older., and yes I do feel a bit wiser. but if life experience itself didn't do all those things on its own( college educated or not), that wouldn't be a God blessed life. I know he's blessing me in some way and leading me somewhere... just not sure where that is right now. .... esp when I can't get myself to study for these dumb little finals that are just tiny little milestones when looking at the big picture...the whole journey of my life. What's this C got to do with my future? what's this B- got to do with my happiness? I guess for now,... everything.